Body Feels Old

Been feeling weak, not low energy weak, but muscle weak.  Been noticing it mainly in my hands.  Been dropping stuff lately.  Like my hands don't work as well.  Same with my overall core.  I feel like an old person.  Been taking both BP meds almost daily, instead of alternating since my BP's been kinda high the last few times I test it.  Right hand still slightly puffy.  Been that way for months now.  Joints hurt.  I think white wine is bad for me.  Joints get hot.  Bummer.  Been looking into anti-inflammatory stuff again lately.  I believe inflammation is probably the root of most, if not all of my problems.  Should cut down on certain foods.  Thinking about seeing a homeopath if they're not too expensive.  Maybe next spring if I'm still having joint issues. 

Blindspot

Almost hit someone turned onto a street.  She was crossing the street.  Emi says, dont hit that lady! And thats when I first see her. Again, it was about 45° on left side.  I wonder if I have a blindspot there, though I dont notice anythin odd in my vision on that side.  At first, I thought it was a result of my stroke.  But just read that from age 41-60 that people start having vision decline so the stroke was just a coincidence?  I dunno if this is somethin that can be corrected with glasses.  Makes driving that much more scary.  Dont want to accidentally hurt someone or get into another accident just because I didnt see them.  Might go get another eye exam, its been over 2 years.

Intermittent fasting

Been trying the intermittent fasting for about 3-4 weeks now.  Not eating from 8pm to 9am, giving my system a break for 13hrs, though the goal for women is 14hrs, and 16hrs for men.  One of the health benefits is cardiovascular health and lowering high blood pressure.  Took a reading this morning and it was a surprising 120/82!  I wonder if this is working.  The kids have been working at 630am so I've been going to work that early as well.  Its harder on those days because I'm active but can't eat, I start feeling hungry around 730am.  Because I haven't been eating breakfast at home, I forget to take my meds daily, more like 3-4 times a week.  So I was expecting the BP reading to be high.  So glad to see it was low.  Also been trying to include chia seeds into my diet, either with chia pudding or chia fresca drinks.  Not been too good, but I think I get some in once a week.  Not sure it that is enough to make much of a difference though.  But every little things counts?

Bye bye baby aspirin

Brenda left the clinic so saw the guy doctor.  Dont really like him.  But i mentioned i'm on baby aspirin but preferred to go back to fish oil and he said ok.  Good to have one less chemical drug replaced by natural supplement.

Almost ran into paulas car the other day.  I saw it but it just didnt register till she started screaming.  Then it was, oh yeah, i dont know why i didnt brake. 

Read that the brain ages about 8 yrs after a stroke.  Memory and cog function decline as we get older, mine just sped up a little.

Two years and counting

About 10 days ago was my two year.  The day before, Emi was rushed to the trauma center after passing out at work and hitting her head.  Mid-May will not bring good memories for the both of us.

I dont seem to be having brain glitches as much but more brain numbness, especially around social situations.  I forget to say thank you, or inquire about others well being.  Something is still off though mostly back to normal, I guess.  I still have moments where I go into "pause mode" where I just stop and stand, blank.  Lack of motivation to do anything is still there, but not as much.  Been taking vitamin D3 for about two months now, tests showed i was pretty deficient.  No doubt, i hardly go outside anymore.  I think that deficiency contributed to my sadness and depression which still lingers within me.  I still cry occasionally.  I dont think forgetfulness hasnt gotten any worse lately, seems to be plateauing. Thinking out the future gets me down though.  I think i cant go on like this but yet i cant leave the kids and walk away.  My life is not mine. Yumi is dying.  I dont know if she will be back, sadly.