About 10 days ago was my two year. The day before, Emi was rushed to the trauma center after passing out at work and hitting her head. Mid-May will not bring good memories for the both of us.
I dont seem to be having brain glitches as much but more brain numbness, especially around social situations. I forget to say thank you, or inquire about others well being. Something is still off though mostly back to normal, I guess. I still have moments where I go into "pause mode" where I just stop and stand, blank. Lack of motivation to do anything is still there, but not as much. Been taking vitamin D3 for about two months now, tests showed i was pretty deficient. No doubt, i hardly go outside anymore. I think that deficiency contributed to my sadness and depression which still lingers within me. I still cry occasionally. I dont think forgetfulness hasnt gotten any worse lately, seems to be plateauing. Thinking out the future gets me down though. I think i cant go on like this but yet i cant leave the kids and walk away. My life is not mine. Yumi is dying. I dont know if she will be back, sadly.
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